I need a good, lengthy metaphysical discussion.



Any takers?

Our dog died today.

He was my mother's only escape from reality.




Fuck. God dammit.

If energy can be neither created nor destroyed, are physicists under the impression that the universe is eternal?

If not, what was before and what will be after? Nothingness?




Eternity and nothingness are equally incomprehensible.






stuff is strange...

we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid we are afraid we're all afraid.

I made a $70 meal tonight!!!!


Fettucini with pecorino romano and black pepper
Garlic bread with fresh parsley and romano and parmesan cheeses
Lemon italian ice for dessert


mmmmmm



Technically I guess it was a $35 meal. I had to buy a blender for the italian ice. And since I bought real romano and parmesan cheeses, that was almost $20 by itself. Cheese is expensive. There's plenty of that left over though, so it's ok. This is also probably the first meal I've ever made with ALL fresh ingredients. Fresh parsley, fresh garlic, fresh cheeses, fresh lemons. Well, technically not all fresh since I didn't make the fettucini noodles from scratch, but you get the idea.

Just felt like sharing.

How is it that carbon, hydrogen, oxygen, nitrogen, sulfur, magnesium, calcium, phosphorous, and potassium, when put together, normally make up worthless rocks or gases, but when in just the right proportions, in just the right places, THEY CREATE LIFE?????????????????????????




AGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A few years ago, I sat on my bed, in the dark, for about 3 hours. I listened to my breath. I focused on emptiness.

A bright light suddenly engulfed me. It warmed me from the inside out. Everything tingled. Something happened.

It lasted less than a second. I haven't been back to that place since. I don't know if I'm afraid of finding out what the light will show, or if I'm afraid that I simply won't be able to find it again...




I've decayed. My mind has dulled. I've thought too much without ever really thinking of anything. I've grown too accustomed to just spitting out hypotheses without ever bothering to question what I really believed. I can tell you all the possibilities, but I can't give you an opinion, or my point of view. I simply don't have one anymore.

It's an empty feeling. Not so much uncertainty as apathy now. I'm lost, in the truest sense of the word, and as it tears me apart, I can't seem to care.




All of these thoughts, and yet I can't think...

i need affection.

i need to cuddle...





dammit

I took a nap a couple days ago, and had 3 of the strangest dreams of my life, consecutively...

Dream 1: I am somehow Conan O'Brien and i'm flying around some city at night on a fucking broomstick. Toward the end of this dream I met up with myself as Conan in a parking lot and we discussed what was going to happen on the show that night.

Dream 2: I'm on a hike with Garrett in Africa or something. Some gorilla-like creatures run up to us (they walk on two legs, I guess you could say they were Bigfootesque), a male and female, the female grabs me, and i start freaking out thinking I'm going to die. Then, somehow, she can speak english, and tells me she wants to have sex with me. So now I have to explain to this giant gorilla woman that she's supposed to have sex with the male gorilla. And the male, meanwhile, is looking all sad that she wants to have sex with me and not him.

Dream 3: I'm lost in some sort of RPG video game type world trying to find a way to get somewhere, no idea where, and I keep going in circles. I finally end up at a friends house, where some party is going on. Eric is there, but didn't really do much. I have to pee, but the bathroom is full, so I just grab a pot, sit down in the living room full of people, and start pissing in the pot. Some girl gets mad or something and comes and kicks over the pot. I run out, and at some point run into my mother. At this point I'm freaking out because I know I'm asleep and all these weird things are happening (I still remember the first two dreams at this point) so I'm screaming at my mom to wake me up, and she's slapping and kicking me. Then I wake up.

The last dream isn't quite as random as the others, relatively speaking, but as a cumulative effort I definitely woke up thinking

"what....the....fuuuuck......."

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wow, it's not often that you can sit in a cemetary in the middle of the night, in the middle of nowhere, and find a wireless network, so thought it was worthy of a post

it's nice to get emails saying I'm getting a $1000 scholarship...yay

http://filebox.vt.edu/users/prinz

?whaitsgoinogn

episode #1 - laying on my bed, staring at the pale blue sky. trees wave at the bottom of vision. i sit up, looking down for the familiar streets, houses, and yards of my home. not seeing what i expect, i freeze, wondering where i am. the slow realization leaving me confused and feeling as though i'd actually been away, but can't tell how long...

episode #2 - sitting at my desk, typing. cartoons play in the background. walls shift and blend into those of my bedroom back home. footsteps pass across my door. i turn my head, looking for my brother to pass by, going into his room. not seeing what i expect, i freeze, wondering where i am. the slow realization leaving me confused and feeling as though i'd actually been away, but can't tell how long...

episode #3 - same setup as the previous episode. less visual changes this time. just a voice, female, from down the hall. i turn, ready to go answer my mothers call. not seeing what i expect, i freeze, wondering where i am. the slow realization leaving me confused and feeling as though i'd actually been away, but can't tell how long...





...the last memory of being at school seems so far away.

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i hate dell

this place feels so unfamiliar....

yet i know it well...

Springwood is in Ohio. Camp Crystal Lake was originally set in New Jersey, then filmed in Canada thereafter. The guys from FvsJ drive fast...

i love you iPod